To share everythings with friends who cant meet frequently? To express feelings whenever you like without waiting for a listener to come by? To organize your thoughts when feeling confuse and blur by vomit every single idea in the mind? Just because of loneliness? Or you got nothing to do just looking for an activity to kill time? Well, may be combination of these.
My life, is very much like city life despite living in the biggest Kampung. Typical working woman who feel reluctant to go home after work, very often calling friends or colleagues for drinks movie or dinner at night. Just dont feel like spending time alone at home. Home, since when become a place people avoid to stay?
I could picture the scene a traveller typing his laptop beside the window in his apartment under the dim light, missing his family members. I say I should feeling lucky for stay together with my family every day as HOME is where everyone of us come from. Yet, how many of us do really appreciate the opportunity of able to show our LOVE instantly when they are just beside us? How much did you do to contribute in pulling family members together? I'm deeply shame realising not speaking more than ten sentences to each of them per day. And I wonder why.
The burden of the pass are too heavy to carry forward as it is truelly dragging us badly. We all point our finger to him, and her to accuse them the reason of we are not getting the warmth staying at home. Yes, I did do the same. I'm shame to bring back any friends as I' shame of him while there's also a mixture of feelings towards him. A Hate badly yet love very slightly pity greatly but angrily relationship. For years we never spend time together, not even in the living room, breakfast luch dinner wedding funeral or whatever occasion. We had broken apart, although there's only 5 of us. Believe it or not, my family's relationship with my dog is even better than relationships among ourselves.
Let me guess, you spend more time with your laptop than talking to your mom/dad? You use your hand more typing and driving much more than helping our family members?
I wonder. How the living room at my HOME could become lively again.
